My first blog

There's a lot in my mind, But the words I cannot find; There are so many women, But none of your kind. You're that one girl, I cannot get off my mind! The years spent with you, To my heart I'll bind. I had many plans for this day but I guess the best gift I can give you now is freedom. I don't doubt my love for you but it's not possible to see you suffer being with me. Maybe you were right, we were never meant to be together. Maybe we were only destined to uphold each other and bring a new meaning to life while making memories. I'll never try to look for you in anyone else because I know I will never find you anywhere other than my heart, and even though our journey has ended, I'll love you forever. I recall one dialogue from the movie Jasbaa, "Mohabbat thi isliye jaane diya... Zidd hoti toh baahon mein hoti." Wish you get every happiness in life ahead and succeed in every path you choose. Wish you the best of health and wish you get...

Have you watched the movie 'Cast Away' by Tom Hanks? Do you remember 'Wilson'? The volleyball he used to communicate with throughout the time he was isolated on the island? Do you think he was insane? No. But yes it means life becomes much more easier when we have someone by our side even if it is imaginary. We cannot survive alone. To remain sane we need a company, someone to talk to, someone to depend on emotionally or at least someone who will always be there to listen to what we have to say, which is why we tend to socialize with people, to build relationships, to be friends with, to bank on, to love and be loved. We are driven by an individual's characteristics like personality, intelligence, beauty, etc. But most importantly, we often tend to opt for people who we think can fill a void within us which might be due to any old relationship or any other reason. Relationship is a bond of understanding and trust and something that fulfills all the above between i...

After a long time we communicated. She dropped me a message in Sarahah and I responded. I knew she couldn't see my response so I sent her a screenshot of it on Facebook messenger. Since then we talk sometimes. Today during our conversation she told me she is moving out of the city, rather she is relocating with a job. It shouldn't have made any difference to me but why did it feel like an arrow piercing into my chest? Why did it feel like a cloud of strange sadness overcasting my emotions within? Although I praised her for her decision, but somewhere probably I didn't want her to go, I am probably waiting for her to come back. I have tried moving on but I have failed. I cannot think of anyone else when I think of a relationship or marriage or spending the life with someone. We have so many differences yet I still love her and my love for her is still unfinished. __________________ So I found a random video which I sent her to strike a conversation with her again. M...

It's really devastating to be in a conflict, a conflict within yourself, a conflict between your mind and your heart, a conflict between hope and despair, a conflict where you don't know what's the right thing to do. You know deep down in your heart one day everything will be alright but you don't know what's that "alright"! Why this conflict? It all starts with you giving your everything to someone and then suddenly find out that you are not good enough, not good enough to keep that one person happy who means everything to you, that one person for whom you can happily jump off a cliff but you don't know if anything at all you do will make that person happy. And do you want to see the person sad? Definitely not because you see you consider that person your world and you don't want your world to be sad. So what to do? Try or let go? It pains to realise your efforts are not even close to enough. You fail to understand if your efforts are even ackno...

It was around the first hour of the day while I was returning home from my office. The roads were almost empty, freezing cold, chili wind and darkness being fought by the street lamps. I normally stop at every red signal even if it is just me alone in the road. So I stopped at the last crossing before my home, from where I need to take right. I was waiting at for the right signal to turn green and I know it will take sometime, so I turned off the engine. I noticed a young girl crossing the road from the side I would be going towards. Soon she walked cross the road and approached me. She was telling me something with an expression of shame and compulsion on her face. Although I couldn't hear her voice since the glass on my helmet was shut, but I figured out what she was asking. I nodded my head in negation and thought to myself I shouldn't stop there as this lady might be linked with cops to earn some healthy cash. I started my bike and turned the headlight on, I saw the fac...

Let me tell you a true story! My lady love once found an adorable street dog who was about to give birth to some angels at her office premises. Once they were born, the were gorgeous, beautiful and amazing little puppies and everybody loved them. One day she unfortunately found out the mother to have left her body and her remains lying in the drains of her office. Although the soul left the body, the puppies, unaware of the worldly pains assumed her to be alive while they kept feeding themselves from the long gone mother's breasts. Within a day or two some of the puppies died of hunger and two little angels remained and my lady love decided to shelter them until they can grow strong enough to survive by themselves. One she named Charlie and the other, Ginger. While they grew a little, one of her acquaintances adopted Charlie and Ginger stayed. Over the time Ginger grew up lady like, learning everything she could from her mother, not by birth but by fate. Now she is ten month...

There are certain things in a person which get engraved into my mind and into my heart be it good or bad. It doesn't matter who that person is or what relationship I share with them but it's their those specific things like their smile, the way of talking, the way they laugh, the way they react to emotions, etc. Ever since I was a kid, I mostly had female friends and that somehow is the reason why I was never worried about how to start a conversation with a female. I've seen guys almost pray to God before they spoke to girls or ended up over-speaking. I always had this unique quality of observing. Maybe because I never talked much but yes I used to observe everything around me. My parents used to complain I don't socialize much with my friends and family but this somehow helped in developing a stronger common sense and gather more knowledge about day to day things around me. I've always been in love with automobiles, and because of my keen observation qualities, ...

It's 2017. My bed is positioned in a way that the morning rays hit half the bed. Earlier I used to sleep in a way that the rays hit my face directly so that I know it's morning. I had this idea that it would be an amazing feeling but trust me it's the most horrible thing you could do to yourself. So I started sleeping the other way round and let the sunrays hit my feet instead. Now that, feels amazing. So it happened to me that I this morning I woke up much before the rays could actually make my feet warm and saw the golden rays coming in. I decided to do the most difficult thing during winter mornings. I decided to leave my cosy bed. We have an easy chair. Not the traditional ones but the folding-easy to carry ones. It's pretty comfortable. We have kept it in our balcony. So I decided to sit there and write my first post. But what do I want to write? Well, about the year 2016. So.... last new year, I drank a lot and was totally out. So the start of the new year was ...